You act as though
You don't understand
That I really do
Have a condition
You can't seem to take
What's going on seriously
You tell me to
Buck up and deal with it
That there are people
Worse off than me out there
And when I do take action
Outside of all of you
Because I need help
And you won't acknowledge that
You either ignore it completely
Or talk about that impact and gravity
Of the actions
I have taken
But don't talk to me
About impact
When I was hit
So hard by her
That all sense of who I am
And why I'm here
Was knocked out
Of me completely
Don't talk to me
About gravity
When I am plummeting to the bottom
Of the sea of her emotions
And even though I'm drowning
I can't lift myself out
I refuse to believe
That this is just ignorance
But I'm not sure
What it is
Maybe you are trying
To protect yourselves
Because you don't want to know
How bad things really are
I don't blame you.
I wouldn't either.
Why do you think
I try to escape
With every
Chance I get?
Maybe that's what
She was doing
Trying to
Protect herself
Maybe that's what
She's still doing
Maybe it's harder to see
The pain in my eyes
Or to hear my cries
While you're drowning me
I have never wanted
Anything to be hard on you
So if drowning me is what it takes
To keep you sane
Then I will stop
Trying to fight gravity
