So I woke up at 3 am and this is what came to mind...
She's amazing. You'll find that out shortly after meeting her.
But she's broken. So you try to save her, because she invokes a desire in you too powerful to fight.
But she's not ready, so you wait. And you wait. And finally she lets you in.
And when she does, it's like nothing you've ever felt before.
She brings you to new heights, give you highs you never thought you could experience.
She becomes like an addiction, something you can't live without.
And you'll do anything to keep this high. You'll do anything to make her happy.
And you do. You treat her like no one has ever been treated. You value her like no one has ever been valued.
And you both know this is the best that it's ever going to get for each other.
So you start making plans...living together, marriage, kids....
You can't wait to spend the rest of your life with her.
And it seems mutual for a very long time.
Then one day she gets scared again.
She no longer believes you can save her.
She no longer lets herself be happy with you.
She's too scarred not to settle.
Because with new heights come the possibility of falling.
So she starts worrying about falling.
And you promise to catch her.
But she won't listen.
And you go back to day one.
You tell her you'll wait.
But she won't let you.
She's determined to convince herself that you've done something wrong. That you're wrong.
So you fight.
You fight with everything you have.
You fight as if you were fighting for your life.
Because she has become your life.
And she can't take it.
She won't let you fight.
She's determined to settle.
Even though that's the last thing she deserves.
And you can't bear the thought of living without her.
She was your passion, your life.
Dying even seems a more feasible option.
Would it not be better than watching her "move on" with someone who doesn't even care that she's broken?
But would that not be hypocritical of you?
To move on without her?
Knowing being with anyone but her would be settling.
But you know you can't be with her.
She refuses to come back.
Refuses to be saved.
But that's just it. You already saved her.
And that new-found freedom, that new-found happiness made her run. Made her run like hell.
And you would chase her.
Chase her until your legs break beneath you.
But will you ever catch up to her?
And if you do, will she even turn around?
