We Needed Saving

I swore I'd never
Write when I was angry

Because these words
Aren't just my diaries

They are there
For the world to see

And for
You to see

But didn't I
Start this to cope?

So wouldn't it be more
Hypocritical to not write?

I guess I figure that
It's easier for you

To forget the
Bad sides of me

When they're
Not in writing

And besides
This isn't profound

This won't
Change your life

And it won't
Make you cry

At least not
In the good way

I know that
Venting or leaving

Aren't my
Only options

But I don't like
The in between either

Yet that has
Come to encompass

So much of
What this is

I am constantly in the
Confusing throws of limbo

Where fear, stress
Anxiety, and worry dominate

Do not misunderstand
My love

I do not
Say these things

To imply any
Fault of yours

You did not
Cause this

You would stop it
If you could

Such an odd
Idea though

Because if you
Could stop it

It wouldn't be
Worth fighting for

To add to
The irony

I ask for
Very little

But what I
Do ask for

Those few things
Are the few things

That I
Can't have

That you
Can't give me

At least
Not right now

So I'm
Left waiting

I didn't
Have patience

Before
You came

But you didn't
Have emotions

Crazy how we
Jerked these things

Out of
Each other

An exchange
We both needed

And never wanted
But wouldn't trade

For
Anything

Because somehow
Broken together

Seems to make more sense
Than whole apart

I guess we were never
Really whole before

We were just
Living in

The blissful throws
Of ignorance

Having no idea
We needed saving

A Month for A Month

As I watch
The sunrise

I start to see
My doubts subside

It started with
The sounds of breathing

And almost ended with
The sounds of screaming

We've been torn apart but
We'll always be one

I don't have to see
Your tears to hear them

You don't have to hold my hands
To feel them shaking

This is new
To me and to you

This is nothing
Of what we know

You don't cry
I don't wait

But we took the leap
Leaving what we knew behind

So if you're in
I'm in

If you'll jump
I'll jump

What do
You say?

A month
For a month?

A Move for Love

My heart
In your hands

My words
On your mind

My card
In your pocket

Your life
Before your eyes

Your future
By a thread

Your heart
In your throat

Our pockets
Are empty

The tunnel
Is long

And the
Light is dim

Our eyes on
Each other

Because there's nothing
Else we can see

So we run
From all this

We jump into
The unknown

Wanting the best
Expecting the worst

If you jump
I jump

My life is yours.

"Soar With Me?"

I didn’t just
Lose myself

Everyone else
Lost me too

I lost the person
I once was

Nothing made
Sense anymore

And then
You came

My parents got
Their daughter back

My friends got
“JP” back

You gave me
My life back


But not the life
I once had

A new life
With joy

That I’ve
Never known

With love
I’ve never known

I never thought the world
Would spin again

But then
I realized

That it was never
Really spinning

I thought that I
Had found joy

In that
Complacency

But now
I know joy

Now I
Know love

I suppose
I should

Welcome this
New reality

I suppose
I should

Stop questioning
How this happened

And just be
With you

And just soar
With you

The Days To Come

On the days you can't
See beyond the devastation

I will dry your eyes
Until it all becomes clear

One the days that
My love's all you see

I will show you that it's
All that's worth looking at

On the days you can't move
I will lie beside you

On the days you can't go on
I will go for you

On the days you
Can only go an inch

I will walk the rest
Of the mile for you

On the day you can no longer
Carry the weight of the world

I will take it
On my shoulders

On the days when their
Criticism becomes too much

I will pour out my soul
Until my words are all you hear

On the days when you feel
Like you've lost it all

My love will remain

Beautiful Irony

I've never experienced such great
Disappointment or such great joy

I've never been
Let down harder

But I've never been
Lifted up higher

I've never had a greater
Reason to walk away

But I've never had such a
Strong reason to stay

I will stand my ground
While I take the beating

I won't defy the rules
But I will defy reason

I won't ignore my emotions
But I will ignore the odds

I can't give a reason
Other than love

Do I need another?
Is there another?

I've never felt more
Irrational or more right

I've never experienced
Such perfect imperfection

I Won't

I won’t leave
If you won’t

I won’t stop fighting
If you won’t let me

I won’t give up
If you don’t

I won’t walk away
If you don’t let me turn around

I won’t let go of your hand
If you keep holding mine

I won’t stop loving
If you don’t stop believing

I won’t stop looking
If you don’t turn away

I won’t stop talking
To you like this

If you don’t
Stop listening

I won’t give up
If you promise

To stay with me
On this rollercoaster

On this beautiful ride
That we’re calling life

I can’t promise you easy
But I can promise you forever

Embracing Heartache

Nothing seems to be
Turning out like we planned

Nothing is how we’ve
Been expecting it to be

But at the
Same time

Isn’t that the story
Of our lives?

Did they turn out
Even close to

How we had
Expected them to?

You weren’t looking for love
And I didn’t expect to find it

Every heartache
We’ve ever experienced

Brought us here
To this part of our lives

So I think we must remember that
While we experience the heartache

And the frustration
That this is bringing

We must remember
That hard times

Are what brought us
To where we are

And I can’t imagine
Being anywhere else

So let’s embrace
The heartache

And look forward to
Where it will take us

Together

Time to Start Living

It’s hard for me to forget what
Everyone else wants to remember

I just want to leave
The past behind

Because they don’t remember
What I remember

They didn’t see
What I saw

They didn’t experience
What I experienced

I want to be rid
Of that part

Talking about it
Remembering it

Will only take away from
What I’ve been given now

And yes, throwing that away
May cause me to throw

Some pieces of
Myself away

But I can
Honestly say

That those pieces
Aren’t meant to stay

Who I was
Is not who I am

Where I was is
Nowhere near where I am

And I just want
That to be known

I put in my time
I did my grieving

Now it’s time
To start living

Proving The World Wrong

I think the reason why
I hated cliches

Was because I thought
That they didn't really exist

Heartache was an expression
Butterflies didn't exist

Love at first sight
Was for the movies

No one ever feels
This way this fast

But it didn't take me long to realize
We had just the right kind of cliche

The kind of true love
That defies all the odds

The kind of love that most people
Wouldn't dare to hope for

The kind of love that you
Didn't dare to hope for

Just the sound of each other's
Voices gives us butterflies

Our hearts ache when
We leave each other

The sound of the other's
Breathing puts us to sleep

It took me seconds
To fall for you

It took me days
To realize it was love

I want nothing more from each day
That to spend it with you

Yes, it defies reason
It defies the odds

But I say
Screw the odds

I no longer care
What the world thinks

About our cliche
About our love

Let's prove the world wrong together.