You told me to end
My desire for numbness
Telling me that
If I achieved it
I wold be desperate for
Any feeling, even pain
I don't know if you were
Just looking out for me
Or if you honestly
Thought you were right
If you honestly had never
Experienced pain like this
A pain so great
A pain so overwhelming
That only numbness
Can mask it
And even hat
Does a mediocre job
Yes, I do
Desire feeling
But I can no longer
Feel without pain
My heart can't
Beat without breaking
I can't live
Without dying
